Hey there! Good morning to you. How have you been? Hope you are doing your utmost to stay sane and safe in these times we are in?

For no reason at all,I woke up about an hour ago and I remembered something that happened when Nicole was a toddler.
It was her second term in pre nursery so she must have been 2 years plus,say 2 year and 9 months or thereabouts.

She used to take school bus to and from school. That afternoon,just as the bus dropped her off and the attendant took her upstairs where my shop was,as soon as she saw me,she ran straight into my arms and burst into heavy sobs she was shivering as she cried,I knelt on the ground and took her into my arms trying to soothe her.
The attendant was surprised as she said nothing happened on the bus and she was her usual cheerful self when she boarded the bus from school.I waved at her to go.

After she had cried a whole lot and was calm enough to talk to me,I moved her away from my arms a little still kneeling and gently asked her why she was crying.
Still sobbing,she said “Mummy, buy me my own baby brother,I want a baby brother”
I looked at her now swollen eyes,it triggered me and I began to cry too. I carried her in my arms and went to sit with her on the settee,she slept off and I cried some more.

You see after the traumatic experience I had with her birth,I did not think I was ready for another child and so we were not trying for another baby till she was about 2years and 5months or thereabouts.
I had assumed that it would be easy to conceive quickly given how quickly I took in after our wedding even though we had decided to wait 6months to 1 year before trying for a baby,the very second month,I was pregnant!

And here I was,I had been trying for about 4 months plus and it didn’t look like it was happening. I had missed a period just about a month before then,but it came much later and it wasn’t like my usual period but it passed and I didn’t think much of it.

I didn’t even realize I was beginning to worry about not getting pregnant as soon as I wanted till that day when my daughter came back from school.

I eventually calmed down enough to think things through. When I got home,I discussed with Mike and told him I would like to go and do a scan and generally just check that everything was fine plus I was on my period but was in excruciating pain that I had just chalked up to period pain.

By the next day, the pain had increased across my waist and towards my flanks so I booked an appointment for a pelvic scan.
During the scan, the doctor asked me some questions about my last period and the pain I was currently going through. Turns out I had had a missed abortion the previous month I had missed the period that came much later that was irregular,it didn’t completely clear out and had now resulted in PID (pelvic inflammatory disease)hence the pain.

I was placed on a strong course of antibiotics for a 2 week period and also asked to abstain from sex while on the treatment.

The 2 weeks treatment period went by quickly and after that I went back to do a follow up scan.
Spoke with the doctor about running other tests just to get a clean bill of health. So he wrote a list of tests which included hormonal profile test,blood sugar and so on.

I think I should complete this in another post as it seems to be getting longer than I anticipated. 😊

In the mean time, always remember that self care includes loving yourself, caring for yourself, looking out for yourself and also forgiving yourself.

Be good to yourself and others.

❤
Yetunde

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