Hey there!

How have you been? How has your February been? Going as planned I hope? Mine has been so so. I am still grateful for everyday of my life though😊.

It has been a slow month business wise and also I somehow realized as the year started that I didn’t prepare for the year as I normally would. Let me explain. Usually,I stock foodstuff and groceries in December that carries us through January,February and even March sometimes.

Mike and I would usually bear in mind that the first 2 to 3 months of the year is usually filled with expenses;Kids’ school fees,renewal of house rent as well as trying to map out whatever we have planned for the year. This year,I don’t even know what happened. We didn’t stock up as usual and it sort of affected us as we now have to stretch ourselves more than usual as we accommodate stocking up in January and February. So not funny!

I am planning to start counting down to June (my birth month and this year,it’ll be my 40th by God’s grace)😁. I am excited and look so forward to it.

I really hope to resume briskwalking as my body does not feel like mine,it has been one ache after the other,one pain after the other. I have been trying my best to eat right as much as possible. I deviated from my usual healthy habits for a bit and I feel the consequences in my general feeling of ‘well being’.Plus my coccyx has been giving me a really stressful time lately.

Meanwhile,I am way more deliberate with my associations these days . I am also learning to be more discerning and in touch with my emotions as well as other people’s. Communication has always been my thing,I communicate a lot and I try not to bottle up stuff. I say my mind and leave it that. I am not someone to send you mixed signals. At every point I am clear in my communication of my thoughts and feelings and I expect same from others, I detest mind games or people who are unwilling to express fully or hold back such that you never really can tell what goes on with them.

Yesterday,I went out with Mike on two visits and both were sort of emotional for me because the discussions we had on those visits were around how fickle and devious humans can be and I was shocked at the extent to which people are willing to go to fulfill their selfish desires regardless of how their actions will affect even their loved ones.

I try to see the good in people always but these days,I don’t know what to think again. Still,I consciously choose to deal with an open mind with all the people who cross my path regardless of however they choose to deal. I recognise that there is evil and it dwells in the heart of some but I choose to dwell on the good and hope to meet mostly with the good😊

I am sleepy but cannot sleep because I had a somewhat heavy dinner afyer not eating all day and my dinner seems to be sitting in the middle of my stomach like a heavy stone. So I distract myself with letting my mind drift and writing my thoughts as they come to me this morning while sipping water.😊

I will stay awake for a little while longer and then head to bed. I hope you do have a restful night as I leave you with this picture and you also remember to see the good despite knowing that the bad also exists.😊

❤
Yetunde

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