Hellooooo!

How are you doing ? How have you been? Been a while! I know!
Things just got away from me a bit,been working so hard after shop opened fully to put everything in place and set up structures,not been easy but fulfilling😁.

Been filling kind of guilty for not coming on here and actually considered shutting it down. However,for many reasons,I decided I would keep at it,it is hard to find the time to collect my thoughts enough to write but I will find a way.

So,next year June,I turn 40 by God’s grace. I look so forward to it,I don’t know how not to be excited about it or feel bad in any way about turning 40. I mean,I did not expect to get any younger,for every day that passes,I am thankful and I plan to grow into every age and rock it as gracefully as I can,so help me God.

Oh! That reminds me,my dad turns 80 in a few weeks from now Godwilling,actually in a little over two weeks from now and I have been ruminating over what to gift him that would be befitting but I am yet to come up with anything I like. In case you have gift ideas,I’ll appreciate your input. By now,I am sure you can tell that my dad is one of the most important people in my life.

I have been doing a lot of reflection,I always do because this is how I am wired😊
I was just checking out where I am and where I hope to be in the next couple of years Godwilling,I realize that I have today and then I also have the benefit of hindsight to enable me make changes wherever I believe it is necessary.

I have very few regrets and this maybe because I generally try to live my life in a way that I won’t have cause to regret stuff I did or said.

This does not mean I have never done anything I feel bad about. On the contrary,there are a few things that looking back now,I could have done differently but do I dwell on them and beat myself up endlessly about them? No,I don’t, I think about it,identify how else I could have handled it,take my lessons and move on from it.

I have always been big on relationships. I don’t have a need for too many relationships as I give so much of myself and emotions in my relationships,so having too many people in my circle is just going to spread me thin. I do great alone and also with people.
However,as I grow older,I am also realising the need to conserve my energy,I just don’t have the gumption to spread myself thin anymore,so I am re-evaluating my relationships,there are some people apart from my immediate family who are gold to me,we may not see or talk everyday but we stay solid.
Some,not so much.I go all out for people and I decided early this year that we are matching energies,I will give you exactly what I get from you but being who I am, I might top it sef😅. Basically, I am letting people decide how we want to behave and on what frequency we will be operating these days.

Hubs asked me this evening what I wanted for my 40th birthday,I quipped “A car”,he was like if I can afford it you know I’ll be more than happy. I just laughed,I am a contented human,and have learnt to roll with the tides.
There are so many things I don’t really care much about or stress my head about,like a car,I would like a car but I do not obsess about it,he does not even have to be the one to buy it,if I have the money,I buy myself a ‘badass’ car,if I don’t, I step out and eat amala at a new amala place and go my way.
This is pretty much my approach to life,things are just that,things. They make your life better but are not necessarily what makes you happy😊

I have so much I want to talk about in the coming weeks,let’s hope I am here before the end of the week again.

Remember, nobody can treat you better than you treat yourself,be good to yourself.

❤
Yetunde

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