Hey there!

How are you today? Awake?I am awake though I should be fast asleep as I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow.

Really,how are you? I am okay,save for the current nagging pain in my sides. I really should have it checked out plus I have menstrual cramps. I have not had menstrual cramps in a long while but the past 2 menstrual periods have been particularly stressful and painful for me.

I realize that the older I am getting,the more ‘irritated’ I am with period wahala. It is just kind of inconvenient these days having a period.
Asides the cramps,periods seem to be getting back to when I first had my IUD that I had to change my sanitary towel almost every 2 to 3 hours or risk getting my clothes stained because my periods went from just slight trickles to heavy bleeding that felt like I had a tap that was steadily running somewhere inside my uterus.
I have also gone from my usual 4 days to 5 to 7days. I do not even find this amusing in any way.

That brings me to something else that crossed my mind this afternoon. I realize how much most women are ashamed to talk about menstruation or even acknowledge that they are on their periods as if it is a shameful thing to talk about or for others to know is happening to you and I kind of wondered about it.

Growing up,when a girl gets her cloth stained with blood,it was usually like the world was coming to an end and she would feel like the ground should open up and swallow her just for something that is her body’s natural way of ensuring everything is as it should be or not,the very thing that ‘ makes her a woman’!

I don’t know if this ‘menstruation shame’ is a learned behaviour based on the society we are in or it is just our orientation which now thinking about it may have dated as far back to the Jewish tradition that considers a woman on her period as unclean and by virtue of our Christian faith,this in turn somehow was communicated in no certain terms that our periods should not be talked about or it is something we should be ashamed of.

This may actually be topic for another day because It is really something I think should be talked about more often. Back to what I was saying before I digressed. I am now actively thinking of converting to using a tampon instead of my usual sanitary pads because I am just finding my periods becoming more of a chore,( Mike asked me a few days ago if I would rather be pregnant instead🤣🤣)

Nah,I don’t want to be pregnant,in fact everytime pregnancy crosses my mind,I am even more certain that I do not want any more kids,diapers,breast milk? Nah! I am certain I am good the way I am😄. I do not like the smell of breastmilk,and I had it in abundance,right now,feels like I can smell my pillow again and it has been 7 plus years since being a lactating mum. I had to throw out all my pillows when I was done breastfeeding because they all reeked of breastmilk and the smell just would not go away.

Back to tampons,I have never worn a tampon. Strange yea? I have only ever seen or held a tampon once when I saw it in one of my older sister’s bag ,I was about eleven years I believe,I then said to myself that when I was of age,say 18 years,I would wear tampons. I was already menstruating at age 11,the tampon brand I saw then was tampax or something in those lines.

Along the line,I came across an article about toxic shock in relation to use of tampons in my early teens and it scared me so much that I never thought to try it again.

Here I am,in my late 30s,heading for the 4th floor and I am now seriously considering tampons as an alternative to sanitary pads. 😆

Knowing myself,I may still talk myself out of it,however I am actually really tired of sanitary pads,the whole inconvenience of menstrual periods plus I really like to sleep without underwear or any such encumbrances.

Someone told me her sister hit menopause as soon as she hit 40,erm…I am not ready for menopause just yet,50 to 55 years would be great for menopause 😀

I should go to bed now. You should too.
Do have a good night and don’t forget to be happy. Choose happiness everyday.

P.S

Did you get in your health checks like pap smear,breast exam and the likes done?

October was cancer awareness month and a lot of health care facilities give discounted rates for all of these checks. If you didn’t,it is always a good idea to do routine health checks.

❤
Yetunde

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